confused....

and now again i'm on the verge of confusion.... fighting this feeling between being a mom and being a child. cannot weigh things over but i know that God will guide me in whatever decision i will make, coz i know for sure that HE knows what's inside my heart. it may be too early to tell but just thinking about me makes me so sad and happy at the same time, really confusing isn't? i'll just cross my fingers and pray so hard.